It's been a week!

Pin It Now! Well, I promised that on Tuesdays, I would make an effort to post my "updated" weight and how the week went. So, here I am!

I have to say that I truly do have a wonderful husband. When I posted my weight for last week, and I knew that he had read it, I was HUMILIATED. How did I let myself get to this point?! What I found amazing, was that HE wasn't humiliated. He said he was proud of me. What a heart of gold. I love you Brian!

This week was kind of tough in the aspect of food for me. Granted, It could have been MUCH worse emotionally, and all in all it was a good week. I am learning that eating right really is beneficial even if I am out of time for the day to workout. Trying to find time to exercise with two small ones has been challenging.

The most emotional filled day for me was this: On Saturday, my oldest woke up saying that his foot hurt really bad and I chalked it up to his foot being asleep (he explained it at first as pins and needles). As the day continued, he was having a hard time walking on it and kept complaining. At that point my husband (who is a wonderful Cardiac ICU nurse) and I thought maybe he had a pinched nerve and we continued to encourage him to walk on it as much as possible. Ummmm, not such a good idea. We had kept our eye on it all day and Brian noticed that it was darker than the other foot and was swollen and cold. So we quickly made the decision to take him to the hospital. Of course, before they leave, I open my big mouth and ask what the potential issues could be and answering quickly, my hubby responded, "lots of stuff, maybe a blood clot." GASP. Ohhh boy. Please drive safely, but quickly to the hospital!

He kept me updated via text and Praise God, no clot! But... a broken foot?! What?! Apparently overnight he received a slight stress fracture to his 3rd metatarsal. We had NO idea how it would have happened, but a dear friend who is a pediatric nurse suggested it maybe happened due to a growing spurt. It would  make a lot of sense if you saw how big this kids feet are.

So, long story made longer... As they were at the hospital, mom guilt and worry overcame me and I TOTALLY binged on old candy and, well, whatever else I could find. Then it hit me. I wasn't going to God for my comfort. UGH. Lord, please forgive me. That's when I did it. I threw away the candy (after saving some for later) and then threw away the "later" stash. Yea! Although I ate it at first, I realized that what I was doing was wrong and WHY it was wrong... on a much deeper level than feeling guilty for eating too much candy. This time it MEANT something. That to me equals a change in my patterns.

After all, God isn't mad at me. He isn't disappointed... why should I beat myself up? I shouldn't. Perhaps that is the most important lesson for me this week. It was a mistake, but it doesn't define how this weight loss journey will end. Full of mistakes and steps backwards. Lesson learned. DON'T BINGE! Take "it" to God and lay it at His feet.

I am trying to get into a habit of exercising five days a week. Whew! That's a lot. I wanted to go running the other day and didn't. Not for any reason. Just didn't. Then I realized that I wouldn't be able to run for a couple of days due to weather. As I was sinking into a “funk” because of my "so soon" lack of determination, the "Voice Of Truth” came on the radio. Wow… What a reminder of the voice we need to listen to. Not to let the enemy sneak in and tell us we are worthless and lousy for not getting it done. Just... forgive yourself and don't quit!

Alrighty. I will get to the point. Having not worked out much this week, but eating MUCH healthier than I EVER have, this consistently. My weigh in for this morning was 182.4! Exactly two lbs. lighter :) Not much... but it is a start. I feel stronger, I have a lot more happy energy. I feel blessed.

I may have to update my blog more than once a week. It seems to be a helpful tool in keeping me on track.  :)  Thank you for listening and don't forget to check out myfitnesspal.com. 

Have a great couple of days!